Candid

Ok, so I just got home from counseling and I am going to start being a little more candid on my blog than I usually am. For you my best friends, please know this is in no way a cry for help or need it is me going through my own recovery and healing process in which case you may sense or definitely hear some anger in my blogs.

Today I was asked if I have ever written a letter to Alcohol about how angry I am at it for a family member's addiction and the cause for me to lose two years of my life while constantly trying to help and take care of that family member.

They suggested I do it on my blog as I really don't know who might be reading this other than my best friends and this could actually help someone else. I'm going to do it. Not tonight, I am really angry with Alcohol and in reality I have to leave my house at 4:45 am for work tomorrow and just can't deal with that emotion right now.

But be warned I will be doing it this weekend and sharing. Please do not read it if you don't think you can but I am doing this for me and my recovery and healing and in the faintest hope that maybe someone out there in the cyber world will read it and feel like they too can write a letter to a family member's addiction that has taken years from them.

I love you all and thank you for being there for me and I appreciate this forum to get back to myself!

Summer read

I know summer is almost over but I highly recommend reading The Help. This book takes place in the 60's in Mississippi and shows both worlds of segregation in the South.

With August always feeling like back to school month I am preparing for my busy season at work. I will be busy this month cleaning out closets, the fridge, and the basement. It's time to get the scrapbooking and cardmaking and other crafting stuff out for the fall and winter. I'm finally starting to get back into all of my crafts and plan to learn some new ones including quilting.

I'm Back for a Minute!

Ok, so I totally suck at keeping in touch and keeping a blog up to date but I'm back. I don't have a lot of news except that I am in counseling working on some person items and am starting to feel like myself again.

I lost the bitch that is Sonja (the bitch in a good way!) and started caring way too much what everyone else thinks. I will try to get back on this blog full force and can't wait to reconnect with all of you!

I look forward to seeing what's going on in all your lives and giving you a glimpse of mine :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Happy Birthday Laura and Michelle! I had a great picture but I am technologically challenged right now and can't get to it. It was from a party at the house on Spruce in Boulder. I hope you both had a fabulous day, I miss you!

Prayers for Sale

I just finished reading this book for book club and I highly recommend it. When I started the book I wasn't too excited about it but I stuck with it and really enjoyed the book. The author lives here in Colorado and the book takes place near Breckenridge.

Things are finally starting to calm down for me and I am slowing making it to my New Year's resolutions. I am officially back in the gym and am eating more and cut way down on the wine. My Nikaya is still a little injured, she tore something in her left hind leg and has been limping for about three weeks now. She turned 9 last week so we were really hoping it wasn't arthritis but I'm sure that's next. She's a senior citizen these days!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARA

So better late than never! I hope you had a wonderful birthday and I've been thinking about you all day. I wish I had time to post an old picture but work is crazy these days and I have an injured dog so I apologize.

Happy Birthday!

Candle In The Wind . . .

So I blogged about my friend Beth on Jan. 5 going to book club. That was the last night I had a conversation with her. We let her drink wine even though her husband didn't agree and I had to give her mints for the ride home. The next day she went into hospice.

On Thursday Jan. 14 my mom told me that Beth had passed away. I took the news as bittersweet. I was at work functions all day and don't cry around people very often. It didn't really hit me until I was in my car driving home with my account manager following me to take us to our next commitment.

I took last Friday off as I couldn't be around people and didn't get out of bed until 11:30 when my husband semi-pleaded with me. I was very sad, she was good friend who wore crazy hats and socks, dressed up for Halloween and told me once I reminded her of her when she was my age (a huge compliment I can assure you!)

She was a librarian and extremely knowledgeable but a free spirit. She and I always had one too many glasses of wine together.

Her memorial is tomorrow and I am feeling better, I write about Beth a lot. I am going to wear a hat and some bold colors to celebrate her life. I think they should play Candle in the Wind by Elton John as I think that actually applies more to her than Marilyn Monroe.

Beth - I hope you are dancing, laughing and telling anecdotal stories in heaven, you are truly one in a million!